Looking a bit gloomy lately and I’m trying to keep a positive vibe going, but in all honesty I’m starting to struggle. My anxiety levels are starting to rise especially when driving and I’m feeling pretty drained. A horrible and very unappreciated combination of SAD and driving anxiety is not something I enjoy.
Having anxiety about driving isn’t something a lot of people understand. For most people you get in the car, drive, listen to the radio and boom you’re there. In my head it doesn’t work like that. I decided I didn’t want to drive when I was still at school. A family incident made me realise that driving was and still is a big responsibility that shouldn’t be taken lightly.
Fast forward to when I moved in with Jase, buses were once every hour if you’re lucky and that doesn’t fit with working hours very well. I did eventually learn to drive but my confidence took a long time to grow due to my first and second car being from a garage that were clearly selling crap cars. This caused a lot of debt and a lot of breaking down. I had two cars returned within the space of eight weeks because of it. I eventually gained my car now which I love but last year I skidded on black ice and had a rather scary experience. Confidence was back to zero.
I‘m getting better and gradually going on longer drives etc but I still overthink the whole driving process. Feeling anxious about something you do every day is not fun. Do you experience anything like this?